I cannot believe it's been a year since I wrote a blog post! Can you say BUSY? Yes, I guess life has become rather hectic with schedules and activities for four children, in addition to my jumping back into the world of speech-language pathology after thirteen years.
As I mentioned last year, I started choosing a Word of the Year in 2014, after finding lists of resolutions to come up pretty empty year after year. I do like a fresh start...is there anything more lovely than a blank new calendar? And I am a very goal-oriented person, but let's be honest, as a mom of four busy children, my goals are focused more on my children/family than on personal goals. With the one word of the year, I found it easier to incorporate that thought or idea into my life overall. 2014's word was PRESENT. I worked hard to be PRESENT with my children, to not over-commit to everything under the sun, but to be deliberate with my time, to be purposeful with my energies. I would call it a great success...my word did not consume or stress me. It gently reminded me to focus and plug in to what I valued.
My Word of the Year for 2015 was KIND. I had felt like I was often telling my children to be KIND, to respect one another, to get along. KIND ended up being a wonderful word for us. Are we always KIND? No, but thinking about being KIND, seeing the word KIND on the chalkboard near our dinner table, and being purposeful about KINDness helped the overall tone of our home and our relationships. Also, thinking before speaking, "is this KIND?" helped filter our speech.
My Word of the Year for 2016, after much deliberation, is TRANSFORM. I hemmed and hawed for weeks, vacillating between "change" and "TRANSFORM." My children commented, "Aren't they the same thing, though?" and as I pondered, I realized that no, they are not exactly the same. Change can happen quickly or slowly, but TRANSFORM conjures more of a process.
So why on earth did I pick this word? Several key reasons come to mind:
1) We are always TRANSFORMING...kids are growing and, much as we resist it, our bodies are TRANSFORMING - aging every day. In our family, September of 2016 will see our first child head off to the big high school! I am seeing TRANSFORMATIONS with my work, as I take on more speech therapy clients, juggle my Etsy Shop, my Mary Kay business, as well as my roles as wife and mother.
2) I am hoping to TRANSFORM my body back into the shape/condition it was in 2013 when I turned 40. Back then, I was dedicated to eating healthy, whole food. In addition, I was committed to intense workout plans. The hard work paid off, and I was in the best shape of my life as my husband and I headed off on a cruise in June 2013. So far this year, I am starting my TRANSFORMATION by eliminating grains, dairy, sugary junk and as much processed junk as possible. I have also begun 20 weeks of TurboFire, an at-home workout program that I LOVE! Stay tuned for a (hopeful) TRANSFORMATION story in a few months.
3) We have had a lot of changes at our church recently, including a new name, and although I tend to prefer consistency and sameness, I also see the need for TRANSFORMATION. Our new name should eliminate various barriers for guests. We have some members moving away, one pastor leaving to plant a church, church-wide life groups beginning, and a number of other TRANSFORMATIONS. I can sit alone and be upset, resisting TRANSFORMATION, or I can see that God can use all of this for something wonderful.
4) Romans 12:2-3 says, "Do not be conformed to this world, but be TRANSFORMED by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." How awesome is that? Psalm 51:10 says, "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." How we need clean hearts! And 2 Corinthians 5:17 says, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." What better TRANSFORMATION could there ever be?!
What do I expect or hope for as I focus on the word/idea of TRANSFORM in 2016? That, with God's help and grace, I will be TRANSFORMED mentally and spiritually by His Word and teaching, that with His strength, I will TRANSFORM physically, that with HIS love and guidance, our family will TRANSFORM into new seasons together.
Resting in this comforting knowledge: "I am the Lord, I change not." - Malachi 3:6
Saturday, January 9, 2016
Thursday, January 1, 2015
My One Word for 2015: KIND
I started choosing a Word of the Year last year, after finding lists of resolutions to come up pretty empty year after year. I do like a fresh start...is there anything more lovely than a blank new calendar? And I am a very goal-oriented person, but let's be honest, as a mom of four busy children, my goals are focused more on my children/family than on personal goals. With the one word of the year, I found it easier to incorporate that thought or idea into my life overall. Last year's word was PRESENT. I worked hard to be PRESENT with my children, to not over-commit to everything under the sun, but to be deliberate with my time, to be purposeful with my energies. I would call it a great success...my word did not consume or stress me. It gently reminded me to focus and plug in to what I valued.
Partway through 2014, I announced that our local Mom's group theme would be JOY and did I ever have fun finding, seeing and basking in JOY! Of all of the nine fruits of the spirit, I would say JOY comes to me most easily. In less favorable situations, where I am becoming a real Negative Nelly, all I have to do is think about the JOY, name the blessings, and my entire attitude shifts and Positive Polly is back. I believe JOY is contagious...so share it! Discontentment robs us of JOY...so be content! If I had to choose one word for the rest of my life, it would surely be JOY.
So here we are ringing in a new year. Many are eager to get started and leave 2014 in the past. Honestly, I had an incredible year. I am thankful for each day and I have a full heart of wonderful memories. I did not walk a path of suffering or pain. I did not bury a child, spouse or parent. I pray that I can find a shred of JOY, WHEN (not IF) that day comes. But in the meantime, I will savor this sweet time in my life. I will make memories of the mundane. I will find JOY in the ordinary.
My Word of the Year for 2015 is KIND. I feel like I am often telling my children to be KIND, to respect one another, to get along. When I began to think about my word for this year, it became abundantly clear that we all, my children, myself, society, we all could be more KIND to one another.
How will this look in my home? With my children, I will talk often about showing KINDness to one another, to parents, siblings, friends. KINDness goes deeper than nice. It encompasses more than respect. To be truly KIND means you are thinking about another person's feelings, you are aware of another's needs, you are seeing the world from another's point of view. Instead of saying, "Stop bothering your sister," I will try to have that child see that what he is doing is unKIND to his sister, explain how that is so, and to impart that other-centered view.
How will this look in me? I will try to stop my terrible tongue from wagging. I will make a conscious effort to speak words of KINDness to and about others. Snobby Mommy land is full of unKINDness and judge-y-pants attitudes and comments. I want that to stop! Moms do not need more judgement, condemnation and guilt, but KINDness, support and empathy. I want to come up alongside a struggling mom of a tantruming toddler and help her, not shake my head in judgement of her. When my cart is full to the top at Aldi and a gentleman behind me has three items, I want to show KINDness and let him go ahead of me. I pray that God will give me eyes of KINDness and will give opportunities for me to show, not just tell, my children KINDness and how to be KIND.
How do I hope this ripples out into the world? I think KINDness, like JOY, is contagious. Kids all over the country are performing random acts of KINDness and I think it is wonderful! Let's all be mindful of our words, thoughts and attitudes...if we make that choice to be KIND, perhaps the KINDness will be passed on...and on...and on.
Ephesians 4:32 "Be KIND and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."
Galatians 5:22-23 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, KINDness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law."
Micah 6:8 "He has shown you, O man, what is good and what the Lord requires of you; to do justly and to love KINDness and to walk humbly with your God."
Partway through 2014, I announced that our local Mom's group theme would be JOY and did I ever have fun finding, seeing and basking in JOY! Of all of the nine fruits of the spirit, I would say JOY comes to me most easily. In less favorable situations, where I am becoming a real Negative Nelly, all I have to do is think about the JOY, name the blessings, and my entire attitude shifts and Positive Polly is back. I believe JOY is contagious...so share it! Discontentment robs us of JOY...so be content! If I had to choose one word for the rest of my life, it would surely be JOY.
So here we are ringing in a new year. Many are eager to get started and leave 2014 in the past. Honestly, I had an incredible year. I am thankful for each day and I have a full heart of wonderful memories. I did not walk a path of suffering or pain. I did not bury a child, spouse or parent. I pray that I can find a shred of JOY, WHEN (not IF) that day comes. But in the meantime, I will savor this sweet time in my life. I will make memories of the mundane. I will find JOY in the ordinary.
My Word of the Year for 2015 is KIND. I feel like I am often telling my children to be KIND, to respect one another, to get along. When I began to think about my word for this year, it became abundantly clear that we all, my children, myself, society, we all could be more KIND to one another.
How will this look in my home? With my children, I will talk often about showing KINDness to one another, to parents, siblings, friends. KINDness goes deeper than nice. It encompasses more than respect. To be truly KIND means you are thinking about another person's feelings, you are aware of another's needs, you are seeing the world from another's point of view. Instead of saying, "Stop bothering your sister," I will try to have that child see that what he is doing is unKIND to his sister, explain how that is so, and to impart that other-centered view.
How will this look in me? I will try to stop my terrible tongue from wagging. I will make a conscious effort to speak words of KINDness to and about others. Snobby Mommy land is full of unKINDness and judge-y-pants attitudes and comments. I want that to stop! Moms do not need more judgement, condemnation and guilt, but KINDness, support and empathy. I want to come up alongside a struggling mom of a tantruming toddler and help her, not shake my head in judgement of her. When my cart is full to the top at Aldi and a gentleman behind me has three items, I want to show KINDness and let him go ahead of me. I pray that God will give me eyes of KINDness and will give opportunities for me to show, not just tell, my children KINDness and how to be KIND.
How do I hope this ripples out into the world? I think KINDness, like JOY, is contagious. Kids all over the country are performing random acts of KINDness and I think it is wonderful! Let's all be mindful of our words, thoughts and attitudes...if we make that choice to be KIND, perhaps the KINDness will be passed on...and on...and on.
Ephesians 4:32 "Be KIND and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."
Galatians 5:22-23 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, KINDness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law."
Micah 6:8 "He has shown you, O man, what is good and what the Lord requires of you; to do justly and to love KINDness and to walk humbly with your God."
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Reflections...from stressed to blessed!
Summer is over (okay, so it's not technically over until September 23rd, but it feels like it's over when the kids go back to school!) Did it seem to go by a bit faster than usual this year? I feel like I was just cleaning out the lunch bags and sorting through end of the year paperwork, yet here I am labeling items and double-checking back packs! I should be getting into bed, setting my alarm and preparing for a whole new round of the morning whirlwind, but who am I kidding? I never sleep well the night before school starts. I'm too busy worrying, wondering and praying.
Worrying...will it be a good year? Will the bus come on time? Will the kids find their classrooms? Will they find their friends? Will their teachers like them? Will their lunches and snacks fill them? Will they have fun? Will they find the right bus home? Will the bus find our house?
Wondering..did they have a good summer? Did they have fun? What will they remember? Did I do enough with them? Did they make lasting memories? Did I miss anything? Do I regret anything?
Praying...God please protect them, please help their teachers, please keep them all safe, please let them grow this year (but not too much!), please let them make just one good friend, please remind them that You are always with them, please help them to know they are loved!
Why does mommy-guilt continue to consume me? When I stop and think about it, we DID have fun this summer. We DID make memories. I didn't miss a thing! I had the joy of watching my kids swim, both playing in the pool and swimming fast in swim meets. Yes, it was loud and busy and messy around here, but we had a good time. From ice pops and ice cream sandwiches and ice cream cones galore to swimming in our pool, the swim team pool and the lake, from riding on bikes to four-wheelers to boats and tubes and canoes, waterskiing, camping, movies, playdates, campfires, smores, VBS, a trip to Colorado for the oldest, pedicures for the girls, go kart races for two, lots of time with cousins and family...we had a blast!
As I begin to count my blessings, things become more clear: what a blessing it was to be with my babies all summer. They are growing up so fast, but I've been a part of every step along the way.
When I asked the kids tonight what their favorite summer memory of 2014 was, they said: time with cousins, camping, riding bikes, and swim team.
Instead of fretting before I fall asleep, I will be thankful for a great summer with my family.
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Angry Moms: Time to Get Real
For Mom2Mom speech presented 1/16/14; written 1/4/14
Backstory –
This particular topic has been on my mind quite some time.
While planning out our Mom2Mom year with my sidekick M back in the summer, I
knew this was a topic that needed to be addressed. My “plan” at that time was
to go through a detailed history of all of my personal issues with anger, a
list of references including the library of books I have on this topic, etc.
But God evidently wanted me to alter my plan, as you will soon see…
Intro –
I have felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to speak on the topic
of Angry Moms for awhile now. As I pondered my “speech” over the last couple of
months, I found that there is so much more than just an angry mom in the
spotlight. She’s not “just angry.” She’s tired, worn-out, weary, at the end of
her rope, helpless, jealous, discontent, bitter, envious, neglected, proud,
self-centered, insecure, clueless, lacking confidence, out of control,
powerless, spiteful, hateful, shameful, ashamed, broken, desperate, in need of
a savior.
Caveat –
Before we move forward, please let it be clear: that Savior
is not and can never be her child, her husband, her house, her car, her body,
her clothes, her diet, her stuff, her collections, her checklists, her goals, her
accomplishments, her friends, her church, her TV shows, her books, her
self-help guru, her moms group. Only Jesus can fill that empty place. Only
Jesus can love unconditionally, with mercy and grace, knowing EVERY UGLY SECRET
– the deepest parts – and still, He loves us.
Why Saying “lean on
Jesus” isn’t always enough –
So what about angry moms? Just lean on Jesus and we’ll be
all better? How I wish it were that simple! For some, maybe it is. But not for
me. I was saved when I was four years old, but oh have I been angry a few times
since then?!! An ugly, raging temper that rears its ugly head time and time
again, despite my best efforts to stuff it away, despite my happy church face
and my children with clean faces and pretty clothes. It’s time to get real,
girls! We all stink! Those plastic facades are just another step we take that
makes us exhausted and leaves us feeling inadequate and unfulfilled. Let’s get
off the crazy fake cycle, ok? Let’s be honest now and admit we don’t have it
all together all the time.
Why so angry?
So what are we to do about it? I think we need to first
figure out WHY? Why the anger? Where is it coming from? I listed several
sources earlier.
1.
Exhaustion. Being a mom is HARD! A mom of a
newborn often means sleep deprivation. (I’m certainly not at my best when I am
tired.)
2.
Loneliness. We may feel lonely – at 3 am, feeding
a screaming baby, while the rest of the world (and likely our husband) sleeps,
we may feel lonely and even resentful.
3.
Jealousy. How about jealousy? I remember coming
home from playdates FURIOUS because my furniture or faucet or rugs were no
longer “good enough.” My friends didn’t necessarily say so, but I felt jealous
of their nice new “stuff,” became discontent which turned to bitterness and
anger. We can be jealous over “stuff” or over a talent someone else has. Or how
about that friend with the “kind and helpful husband.” Boy, did I put some
serious strain on my marriage when I whined to my husband that he didn’t offer
to do bath time like so and so’s husband did. (Sad truth: if he had offered, I
would have criticized the way he did bath time!)
4.
Expectations. One major trigger for me is
expectations! I spent a year in marriage counseling back in 2006. I learned
that my expectations of others were extremely high, and my expectations of
myself were actually unattainable.
5.
Perfection/Control. The word “perfect” has been
all but eliminated from my vocabulary since it caused such angst for me. Did you
know that only God is perfect? True perfection is something we can look forward
to in heaven. The song “Free to Be Me” by Francesca Battistelli has a line that
always jumps out at me: “Try to fit the pieces together BUT PERFECTION IS MY
ENEMY.” The new song, “Let It Go” from the movie “Frozen” brought me to tears
when I heard it. I sure have a lot to learn to let go of! “Don’t let them in,
don’t let them see, be the good girl you always have to be. Conceal, don’t
feel, don’t let them know, well now they know…let it go, let it go, can’t hold it
back anymore. Let it go, let it go, and I’ll rise like the break of dawn. Let
it go, let it go, that perfect girl is gone!” Another song, “Perfect People” by
Natalie Grant really strikes a chord with me – can you relate? (Will try to
link video here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7D-ONj8PO8 Lyrics below.)
“Perfect
People” by Natalie Grant
Never
let 'em see you when you're breaking
Never
let 'em see you when you fall
That's
how we live and that's how we try
Tell
the world you've got it all together
Never
let them see what's underneath
Cover
it up with a crooked smile
But
it only lasts for a little while
[CHORUS:]
There's
no such thing as perfect people
There's
no such thing as a perfect life
So
come as you are, broken and scarred
Lift
up your heart and be amazed
And
be changed by a perfect God
Suddenly
it's like a weight is lifted
When
you hear the words that you are loved
He
knows where you are and where you've been
And
you never have to go there again
[CHORUS]
Who
lived and died to give new life
To
heal our imperfections
So
look up and see out let grace be enough
[CHORUS]
By a
perfect God [5x]
Be
changed by a perfect God
Be
changed
Exhaustion, loneliness, jealousy,
discontentment, expectations, perfection/control – all of this can lead to some
really angry times.
Dealing
with the issues –
1.
Exhaustion: Some of this, we just have to “get
through the phase,” like the newborn stage or sickness. This will pass. BUT –
it’s ok to ask for help! It’s ok to say, “I really need two straight hours of
sleep – can someone come hold my baby please?!”
2.
Loneliness: Stop waiting for someone to call,
YOU be the one to reach out! The fastest way to get over yourself is to serve
someone else. Ask someone over for coffee, meet at the park, text, email, call.
That person you reach out to may be feeling even lonelier than you!
3.
Jealousy and Discontentment: Truly, I stopped
looking at ads and catalogs and magazines and flyers. I avoided malls. I found
friends who were in similar financial situations as mine. I put my eyes back in
my own space and became a better homemaker, finding joy in cleaning the space I
was BLESSED with, cooking for the family I had PRAYED FOR. I literally counted
my blessings and turned my complaints and my rotten attitude into gratitude.
(You may see my Negative Nelly/Positive Polly posts on Facebook, for example:
it’s pouring rain and I have all four kids bickering in the van with me and we
have to go to the orthodontist. Boo. Poor me! Let’s turn this around – I am
able to drive a car, I have a car, we’re not waiting for a cab, I have four
healthy children that I desperately wanted and prayed for, we’re going to an
elective appointment not something awful like a surgery or chemo, we have
insurance and can afford the orthodontic appliance, and the list goes on.) That
doesn’t mean I get fake: I acknowledge the hurt, complaint, frustration. Then I
pray that God would show me the good things, the blessings, and HE HAS NEVER
FAILED!
4&5.
Expectations/Perfection/Control: Here is what I say to myself – God loves me.
He is in control. He is sovereign. Only He is perfect. It’s ok to have high expectations,
but it’s important to show grace to others – and to ourselves. These verses are
particularly helpful to me:
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans
I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to
give you hope and a future.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with
all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways,
acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
I also focus on the Fruit of the
Spirit: love, peace, joy, patience, gentleness, self-control, goodness,
faithfulness, kindness.
Strength in our weakness
I used to be embarrassed when
people would quote from the Bible about a mother’s gentleness – I was not gentle
much of the time!
I Thessalonians 2:7 “We were gentle
among you like a nursing mother.”
I Peter 3:4 “…the unfading beauty
of a gentle and quiet spirit.”
Then I realized
that it’s ok that I am not perfect – when I am weak in my flesh, God is strong.
Faking it isn’t the answer; acknowledging our imperfections and flaws, laying
them bare before God and asking for His supernatural grace and strength and
healing is how we not simply endure, but grow…bloom…flourish…in Him! THEN, He
will continue to use our trials to draw others to Him, as I pray is happening
now as I share my story. May YOU see HIS power, HIS love, and HIS grace…it’s
for YOU too!
To
God be all the glory.
Verses
that talk about God’s Perfection:
James 1:17 Whatever is good and perfect comes down to us from God our
Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a
shifting shadow.
Psalm 18:30 God’s way is perfect. All the LORD’s promises prove
true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection.
Isaiah 25:1 LORD, you are my God; I will
exalt you and praise your name, for in
perfect faithfulness you have done wonderful things, things planned long
ago.
Take
Heart! There is hope…
2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is all you need. My power works best
in weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power
of Christ can work through me.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 That is why
we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed
every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet
they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!
So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather we fix our gaze on
things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but
the things we cannot see will last forever.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Word Of The Year
This is my
first time naming my “Word of the Year.” I have seen other friends post on
blogs or Facebook their “word.” I have seen words like hope, dream, believe,
strong, brave, and dare. I have thought long and hard about my word for 2014.
After much deliberation, I have decided on the word: PRESENT.
Google tells
me PRESENT can mean several different things. PRESENT can be pronounced two
different ways and can be a verb, a noun, or an adjective. Its meanings
include: (of a person) in a particular place, existing
or occurring now, the period of time now occurring, give something to (someone)
formally or ceremonially, bring about or be the cause of (a problem or
difficulty), hold out or aim (a firearm) at something so as to be ready to
fire, or a thing given to someone as a gift.
What do I mean when
I say my word of the year is PRESENT?
I mean I want to BE
PRESENT.
I want to be
plugged in, aware, involved.
I want to be PRESENT
with God,
PRESENT with my
husband,
PRESENT in the
lives of my children,
PRESENT at church,
PRESENT at school,
PRESENT in my
community.
That doesn’t mean I
want to be busy. Scurrying around, overscheduled, frantic busy. Rather, I want
to be selective in my involvement. Purposeful with my time, my words, my
actions. I want to make memories. I want to treasure special times in my heart.
I want to notice the little things as my children learn and grow. I know there
are many things and people that compete for my PRESENCE, and I know that it
will be difficult to be PRESENT at some events and say no to others. I am
leaning on the Lord to help me be discerning as I prioritize and become
intentional in the ways I am PRESENT.
I am eager to begin
2014 thinking about being PRESENT and I have confidence that God will blow my
mind with the way He uses circumstances to show me He is sovereign. I am
grateful beyond words for His greatest PRESENT, His Son who saved my life. I
look forward to the day I will dwell in His holy PRESENCE for eternity.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
It's Been Awhile
Goodness it sure has been awhile since I've dusted off the old blog. It's not that I haven't had anything to say. It's not that I haven't thought about posts. Perhaps I've even written a few DOZEN posts in my head! But life has been been wonderfully, deliciously, amazingly busy around here. My beautiful babies are growing like crazy, now ages 5 1/2, 7 1/2, a week from 9, and 11. Maybe it was reading a terrific article about being "in the sweet spot" that prompted me to post today. Or maybe it's the fallish breeze blowing through my open windows. Or the fact that half of my herd is off adventuring. Or that the kiddos head back to school in less than five weeks. Whatever the reason, here I am.
This summer has been like no other. I'm still a mom of four busy children. But they are no longer babies. With my youngest being five, we have a new mobility. We were able to see a water ski show and fireworks at Jumpin' Jacks. We were able to go to parks without a diaper bag. We were able to swim without floaties or swim diapers. It's amazing. Of course I miss the baby phase, but I am really enjoying the "people" my children are becoming. They are funny, witty, helpful and smart. They are capable and confident. They keep me honest and humble. Often, they are my mirror...reflecting the good as well as the bad.
I was shopping for school supplies and a few gifts today and stumbled upon a book called, "If I Could Keep You Little..." by Marianne Richmond. I truly burst into tears in the store right then and there. Here are the words to this wonderful tribute to children growing:
My goodness how those words capture what my heart is feeling! In just a month, my oldest will enter middle school and my baby will go to kindergarten! How can it be?! Wasn't I just nursing my first, looking out the window as the big yellow bus came to pick up the neighborhood kids?! As I sat there holding my fussy little one, it felt like decades before I would be sending him to school. And now he is 11! "The days are long but the years are short." How true it is.
I don't want to be sad for the time gone by. Instead, I will hold on to the memories while enjoying today. Truly being in the moment with my "little" ones.
This summer has been like no other. I'm still a mom of four busy children. But they are no longer babies. With my youngest being five, we have a new mobility. We were able to see a water ski show and fireworks at Jumpin' Jacks. We were able to go to parks without a diaper bag. We were able to swim without floaties or swim diapers. It's amazing. Of course I miss the baby phase, but I am really enjoying the "people" my children are becoming. They are funny, witty, helpful and smart. They are capable and confident. They keep me honest and humble. Often, they are my mirror...reflecting the good as well as the bad.
I was shopping for school supplies and a few gifts today and stumbled upon a book called, "If I Could Keep You Little..." by Marianne Richmond. I truly burst into tears in the store right then and there. Here are the words to this wonderful tribute to children growing:
If I could keep you little, I’d hum you lullabies. But then I’d miss you singing your concert’s big surprise.
If I could keep you little, I’d hold your hand everywhere. But then I’d miss you knowing, “I can go…you stay there.”
If I could keep you little, I’d kiss your cuts and scrapes. But then I’d miss you learning from your own mistakes.
If I could keep you little, I’d strap you in real tight. But then I’d miss you swinging from your treetop height.
If I could keep you little, I’d decide on matching clothes. But then I’d miss you choosing dots on top and stripes below.
If I could keep you little, I’d cut your bread into shapes. But then I’d miss you finding, “Hey! I like ketchup with my grapes!”
If I could keep you little, I’d tell you stories every night. But then I’d miss you reading the words you’ve learned by sight.
If I could keep you little, I’d pick for you a friend or two. But then I’d miss you finding friends you like who like you, too!
If I could keep you little, I’d push your ducky float. But then I’d miss you feeling the wind behind summer’s boat.
If I could keep you little, we’d nap in our fort midday. But then I’d miss you sharing adventures from camp away.
If I could keep you little, I’d fly you with my feet. But then I’d miss you seeing sky and clouds from your seat.
If I could keep you little, I’d keep you close to me. But then I’d miss you growing into who you’re meant to be!
My goodness how those words capture what my heart is feeling! In just a month, my oldest will enter middle school and my baby will go to kindergarten! How can it be?! Wasn't I just nursing my first, looking out the window as the big yellow bus came to pick up the neighborhood kids?! As I sat there holding my fussy little one, it felt like decades before I would be sending him to school. And now he is 11! "The days are long but the years are short." How true it is.
I don't want to be sad for the time gone by. Instead, I will hold on to the memories while enjoying today. Truly being in the moment with my "little" ones.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
On Repeat
Do you ever stumble upon a song you HAVE TO hear OVER and OVER? That happens to me every now and then. A month or so ago, it was "Forever Reign". I sang it at the top of my lungs while driving to pick up my youngest from preschool. I sang it until I cried...the words were (still are) so powerful!
Today I've been listening to a variety of Christmas albums. "Glorious Impossible" (as performed by FFH) really touched me...I think I'm on my 10th repeat of the song (ok, so I found several other arrangements, one done by the Gaither Vocal Band, another by Carl Cartree, the writer of the song). I absolutely LOVE this song!!! Give it a listen, read the lyrics, see if you agree with me...
this is one beautiful song!
**side note...i just discovered another beautiful arrangement of this song, done by new-to-me duo, The Wiebes...gorgeous!
Here is their arrangement.
See the Virgin is delivered
In a cold and crowded stall
Mirror of the Father's glory
Lies beside her in the straw
He is Mercy's incarnation
Marvel at this miracle!
For the Virgin gently holds
The Glorious Impossible
Love has come to walk on water
Turn the water into wine
Touch the leper,
bless the children
Love both human and divine
Praise the wisdom of the Father
Who has spoken through His Son
Speaking still, He calls us to
The Glorious Impossible
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Glorious Impossible
He was bruised for our transgressions
And He bears eternal scars
He was raised for our salvation
And His righteousness is ours
Praise, oh praise Him, praise the glory
Of this lavish grace so full
Lift your souls now and receive
the Glorious Impossible!
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Glorious Impossible
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Glorious Impossible
Glorious Impossible
Praise, oh praise Him, praise the glory
Of this lavish grace so full
Lift your souls now and receive
The Glorious Impossible
Today I've been listening to a variety of Christmas albums. "Glorious Impossible" (as performed by FFH) really touched me...I think I'm on my 10th repeat of the song (ok, so I found several other arrangements, one done by the Gaither Vocal Band, another by Carl Cartree, the writer of the song). I absolutely LOVE this song!!! Give it a listen, read the lyrics, see if you agree with me...
this is one beautiful song!
**side note...i just discovered another beautiful arrangement of this song, done by new-to-me duo, The Wiebes...gorgeous!
Here is their arrangement.
See the Virgin is delivered
In a cold and crowded stall
Mirror of the Father's glory
Lies beside her in the straw
He is Mercy's incarnation
Marvel at this miracle!
For the Virgin gently holds
The Glorious Impossible
Love has come to walk on water
Turn the water into wine
Touch the leper,
bless the children
Love both human and divine
Praise the wisdom of the Father
Who has spoken through His Son
Speaking still, He calls us to
The Glorious Impossible
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Glorious Impossible
He was bruised for our transgressions
And He bears eternal scars
He was raised for our salvation
And His righteousness is ours
Praise, oh praise Him, praise the glory
Of this lavish grace so full
Lift your souls now and receive
the Glorious Impossible!
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Glorious Impossible
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Glorious Impossible
Glorious Impossible
Praise, oh praise Him, praise the glory
Of this lavish grace so full
Lift your souls now and receive
The Glorious Impossible
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